He's was doing better this morning. Likely just bright bulb syndrome. He's gone down a lot today. Burning up, gums are going white due to lack of red blood cells, complete loss of appetite and I'm having to give him liquids with a dropper. He's fighting against taking his medicine. He's spending a lot of time by himself and he's getting more and more lethargic. You set him somewhere and he'll just stay there. He hasn't walked more than 20' total all day.
The vet and I were hoping I could have til Tuesday with him. But he's going down fast. I've been losing it all day. Nearly broke down in front of my family earlier. He's such an immense part of my life, I just don't know how I'm going to make it without him. When I workout he's on my chest, when I read he's in my lap, when I sleep he's on my back, when I cook he's on the counter, and all other times he's in my arms. He refused to ever be apart from me, and would scratch doors down to get to me. I can't sleep. I'm just sitting here watching my baby die. I'm in hell.
Exhaustion is starting to set in, but I'm worried about missing out on every second with him, or that I'll dream everything is fine and then wake back up to this mess.
On a positive note, my family told me to call them if anything happens and they'll come running.
It's crazy, he's still technically alive and here with me, but I haven't felt this alone in years.
