Quote from: keylight-di on Nov 04, 2010, 07:59:32 AM
Quote from: The Ghoul on Nov 04, 2010, 07:07:39 AM
YAY I'm glad to know there are more of us.
I'm not so sure is it reason to be happy... I hate when it happens, I hate to feel like thoughtless, unthinking being without self-control...
Btw I'm glad that finally some of my post isn't ignored...
Well nothing bad has ever happened to me though, it always seems when i need to use it, it happens and boom problem solved.
After all it helped me alot, then again though i enter it at times not just for fight or flight but to win things. its wierd i can use it in debates after all its like a silent yet more effect and dangerous form of anger, its not explosive at all.
its so wierd for me, when i get mad, i get quiet, i get smarter and faster, its insane to me. Maybe i just have over reactive adrienal glands idk but its like that type of rush just i'm very quiet about it and i'm very serious when it does happen.
however i deal with this anger of mine day in and day out. I enter this state more then i like.
Eversince i saved my mom a month or so ago and i got shot that night, i tell you rage and anger is one hell of a pain killer. My arm didn't start hurting until after the whole deal.
Ever since then i've been entering that rush all the time ever since, always going quiet, always thinking, always acting and reacting. its been so wierd. But then again i've been having to keep my family safe ever since. None of this stuff would of happened if i didn't move in the first place, now i'm helping my mom and my bro fix their life and to take care of people who try to push them around. Its heart breaking really.
But yeah at the slightless sign of trouble physical or social i enter this state of mind, and i feel the rush, not explosive anger to hurt everyone around me but the means to take care of any problem that araises. idk wether to love it or hate it.
I'm just like my mom.
However afterwards i'm really tired and i sleep even longer than normal afterwards, so this is most likly not healthy physically because its exhausting.
I'm just happy to know that me and my family aren't the only ones, i think my brother has it too, he's showing signs of it anyways.