The more we talk I really think the easier it will become, before the pandemic I considered myself mentally strong, Christ, I never even considered/thought about it. I was also ignorant about it... but through a mix of events during the last couple of years, its really taken hold on me. I struggle to talk about it and when I attempt to it makes me crumble... Hugh Edwards, a Welsh journalist recently came out about his struggle with mental health and what he describes is the closest I can explain to how I have felt. Bedridden and it comes in waves, I can feel great or neutral some weeks/days, but then a wave will hit and I just cant think or want to do anything.
I didn't really want to write this post and I've forced myself to, because from reading the messages and recent experience's, I really do think talking about this helps.