Having done some... self-reflecting, I have come to the conclusion that I maybe depressed. Not necessarily mentally depressed, but rather spiritually depressed and emotionally. I've been feeling long emotions of cynicism, resentment and anger. I find little joy in things which I normally found it in, and am feeling like that there is a void in my life which I am desperately and quickly trying to fill. Feelings of... lack of worth, wasted time, resentment are a constant thing which I have been feeling lately.
Very little excites me, very little does anything to make me feel looking forward to.
I feel like.. a part of me has died off. And I've expressed to friends and loved ones that... I want to seek help. There are times where I just.. don't want to talk to anyone, times where I just want to shout "I DON'T CARE" or "WHO GIVES A DAMN?!" at some things...
It's... this void which... I feel is getting bigger, and deeper and I'm just trying so hard to fill it.