god f**kin gdammit i dont think i could be anymore of a piece of shit c**t
llet me tell you guys something.. mina is more of a sister to me thajn anybody else ive ever know, shes the seiseter i;ve always wanted, and that includes disagreements and loving mischief. whether it translates or not doesnt matter, but there is soemthing that keeps us together. shes noble in saying that she takes all the blame but it only has to do witg my absesne, becayse the blame is equal between us. theres no back and forth poitning here. we're both offspirng of bitches.
it wasnt anything serious until our last amoral decision. and this was the only thing we'd collaborated on since the initial twist aroubd. Ive had many revelations tonight, drunker thann ive been in my life, more thank anybody ever shiuld be, rendered blind by alcohol, crying hard infront of 8 year male friends, making them ccry because of the illusion i so properly maintiain of being a 'strong person', but once i told them of the nights in which i woukd get back to the city and cry without any tears or provoked influence. i'm a very weak person, avp galaxy. I put on a mask of immunity, but i hurt just lke any other wounded man. I wont go into it now because it doesnt mater. Instead i'll apologize on my part for this latest sick joke. until then it had been just strange fun, but now, drunk as a c**t on a bender, i realize how screwed up it is. even when initialting it we realized that it was totally amoral, but whne TRUE brave people like Verpargia and Vickers started posting it only confirmed how truly f**ked we were. So here are my uselesss words of 'sorry'. Theryre as sincere as they possibly can be, and i recongnize they may seem incencere because i'm drunk, but they couldnt be more true.
look at me venting in the unhappy thread. what a son of a f**k I am.
Sorry people.
