Made a big decision today. Getting ready to face the gauntlet. I've got some medical issues to address starting tomorrow, and I've heard news of a pretty demanding but well paying job I'd like to try for, and it won't be open long. The medical stuff isn't good, but it's not "fix or you're a dead man" bad. It's going to take awhile, and I'm in for some fear, scolding, a good deal of pain, and a lot of money I can't afford to pay.
But, as I like to tell people, I'm a recovering idiot. I let a hard life, bad luck, and the family trait of denial talk me out of seeking services I long since should have, and now I'm paying the price. But handling a new job at the same time? Plus leaving my work family? And we really are like a family. I just feel overwhelmed.
But what else can I do? Stick my head back in the sand like certain other people I know? I've seen where that got me. And I'm still far too young to let things get any further out of hand. I've got to move forward, even if I have to drag myself kicking and screaming through the whole mess. It sure will be worth it though. Although I suppose some of this mess and any damage will still be with me to some degree for the rest of my life. I look forward to going back and reading this again, at a better time on down the road. And hopefully, the damn humidity won't be so bad then either. Sheesh.
