God help me, this feels so petty, but it did hurt my feelings.
So the family and I were supposed to celebrate my birthday today, because I have to go work a 12 hour shift tomorrow on a holiday. My folks got me nothing, but they are going through some stressful times and I love them of course, so it didn't bother me in the slightest. But there was one member of my family in particular, who made it kind of upsetting.
I basically helped raise him from birth, and I've always treated him like a brother and often times pulled Dad duty when needed. I've sold things I never thought I'd part with so he could eat and have electricity. I bought all of his Christmas presents when the old man ran out. It was my home he and his mother ran to and it was me that watched over them all night long when the old man finally went nuts. I took him to and from school during the week, while I was in college, and took him out to eat and see movies on the weekend when he was lonely. I babysat him, and cooked his meals, and took him to historic places so he could learn new things. I told him stories and taught him how to fish, and set an example of proper adult and manly conduct. To be respectful of others and to love your family more than yourself. And that you always work hard and take care of your business and family first.
So he's 20 years old now and he was making great choices and doing great. But he got his first job about 6 months ago and it's just ruined him for some reason. He won't hardly spend a dime of his money on anybody but himself, including his own mother, who just went another mother's day without even a card from her own son (him) who lives with her and doesn't really pay any bills. So he goes to town yesterday and buys himself $100+ worth of videogames and food/candy etc. Pays no bills, and gets me a $2.50 pack of candy, and a $1.10 card from the discount store. Well, he spent several hours on my birthday playing his new videogames on my television. Just gave me the card and the candy and sat down. We joked and laughed like crazy about silly things just like always, but he never even seemed to feel the need to say happy birthday.
I don't know why, but it just cuts me. After all the things and people I've protected him from. After all the love and guidance and friendship and attention and money I've given him during his life. After everything I taught him about being responsible, his duty to family and community, and to love others more than yourself. It just kinda hurts that he thought so little about me to invest practically no time or money on a day that's rather special to me and instead take care of his own wants. But that he didn't even tell me Happy Birthday hurts the most. It would be nice to at least hear that he gives a damn.