Quote from: Crazy Rich on May 31, 2012, 04:26:30 AM
After looking it up I think it's safe to say I'm suffering from depression.
I've lost interest in some activities so much that it's a battle to get myself to do something of interest, I've contemplated suicide, I've felt sadness, anxiety, worried, helpless, irritable and restless. The only things I seem to like to do is eat, sleep, dream, and listen to music on youtube.
This may be random, but if you like to read, and can get a copy of H.P. Lovecraft's
The Dream Quest of Unknown Kadath, you might really enjoy it. It's kind of helped me through some rough shit, a story I liked so well that I really could just get lost in it, like when you cover yourself with a big pile of blankets and try and pretend the world doesn't exist outside of your house.
Well, that last statement is getting a little weird.
But I read it while in Airborne school, and the anxiety of having to learn how to jump out of planes mixed with the hideous filth of the barracks we had to live in made a bleak sort of strange atmosphere. Plus, I didn't know anybody because I transferred late out of basic due to having to take an additional course to learn how to drive a Bradley, but the point is, I read that story and had some of the most vivid dreams I've ever had in my life. Like those really incredible, creative, and wild dreams that are super immersive and leave your body feeling like you were actually there after you wake up. They made me happy, honestly.
