So depressed and disappointed that I went back to sleep at 9.00AM, woke up at 19.00PM, then went back to sleep at around 22:00PM, now it is 4:00AM, life's so dire politically and environmentally and personally that I just can't honestly find it in myself to enjoy it wholeheartedly anymore.
I have long since stopped creating, and getting lost in other people's creations gets even more difficult everyday, I know I want to escape all this but suicide's not what I want but it's just the only option that I have any control over.
But I can't it's just a thought lingering but it's not nearly as distressing as the state of my life.